it is tiring to face many temptations everyday... at times you feel like giving up the fight... An example? an immediate thought came to mind after reading Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong's National Day speech... i turned to my husband and said "hey, let's migrate!"... years ago, the very same me said i would never migrate... i am the sort of person who starts feeling pangs of home sickness just minutes away from home... ok, maybe not that bad but hours would be a reasonable gauge...
why migrate you say... his speech left me thinking that me and my children are going to suffer, what with the foreign talents coming in and all... bad enough competition without them... of course, seriously tempted but the unavoidable question then surfaces... what does God say? what is God's will? the all-encompassing question, the all-protecting question, the question of most concern... its hard isn't it? especially when His clashes with yours...
oh well, this isn' t the temptation of overwhelming concern, of whether to migrate or not... the overwhelming one is whether to choose to obey God... in all issues... i am tempted, very tempted to let certain issues pass. not think about it, handle it the way i want to... all the time deep inside knowing that i'll regret it if i dont choose God's way...
o let me feel Thee near me! the world is ever near
i see the sights that dazzle, the tempting sounds i hear
my foes are ever near me around me and within
but Jesus draw Thou nearer and shield my soul from sin
o let me hear Thee speaking in accents clear and still
above the storms of passion the murmurs of self-will
o speak to reassure me to hasten or control
o speak and make me listen Thou Guardian of my soul
Thursday, August 24, 2006