i received a reali weird email today... at first, i received an sms telling me that i've been slected for an interview and asked me to check my email.. and so i did... the more i read the mail, the more suspicious i became... the company's name was not mentioned and it was supposedly an international company... and guess what they were looking for? social workers... international company looking for social workers? and the job scope? the social workers needed to travel to other countries, meet up with other people and their expenses will all be paid... they'll stay in 4 star hotels while they're abroad and they'll be paid US dolloars... where is the interview? not fixed and there's a whole range of timings that you can choose from to go for the interview... we're supposed to state our choices... hmmm, do not know what kind of scam this will be...
it is tiring to face many temptations everyday... at times you feel like giving up the fight... An example? an immediate thought came to mind after reading Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong's National Day speech... i turned to my husband and said "hey, let's migrate!"... years ago, the very same me said i would never migrate... i am the sort of person who starts feeling pangs of home sickness just minutes away from home... ok, maybe not that bad but hours would be a reasonable gauge...
why migrate you say... his speech left me thinking that me and my children are going to suffer, what with the foreign talents coming in and all... bad enough competition without them... of course, seriously tempted but the unavoidable question then surfaces... what does God say? what is God's will? the all-encompassing question, the all-protecting question, the question of most concern... its hard isn't it? especially when His clashes with yours...
oh well, this isn' t the temptation of overwhelming concern, of whether to migrate or not... the overwhelming one is whether to choose to obey God... in all issues... i am tempted, very tempted to let certain issues pass. not think about it, handle it the way i want to... all the time deep inside knowing that i'll regret it if i dont choose God's way...
o let me feel Thee near me! the world is ever near
i see the sights that dazzle, the tempting sounds i hear
my foes are ever near me around me and within
but Jesus draw Thou nearer and shield my soul from sin
o let me hear Thee speaking in accents clear and still
above the storms of passion the murmurs of self-will
o speak to reassure me to hasten or control
o speak and make me listen Thou Guardian of my soul
never thot i'll have a blog... not until the day dear waiyee sat down beside me and said "i'll create a blog for you", laid hold of my mouse and started clicking away (and i haven't even responded i think)... and here we are, my blog.
apprenhensive at first.. i had thots such as "what's a 30 year old doing w a blog?" but oh well, even the president of Iran has one... not too old to possess one then...
despite the lighthearted start to this, it is not descriptive of thots and feelings at hand... various multiple issues to be dealt with. issues to do with anger, bitterness and a critical spirit... issues to do with worries and anxiety. the search for a house has finally come to an end... am not elated tho.. ain't i hard to please. fulfillment of my longing and yet am not above the world... reason? a sudden realization of a big responsibility. not that i didn't know better before. just that things doesn't seem to dawn fully upon you til it is fulfilled. exactly what's happening to me now... nevertheless, am thankful to the Lord for giving us this house...
other cause of concern... my job. contract ends this year... came across an area of interst while searching. Beyond Social Services has a program called "Babes".. no, it does not deal with pigs, pork, pretty girls or the like.. it is so called becos it is a program for teenage unwed mothers and unwanted babies.. a heart breaking job actually. am gonna find out more...
tho these cloud my mind at times, there're still many things to thank God for... mon was a good time with dad and mom with vinc... had a good talk with yanheng ytd... vinc managed to have a change of perspective about job, God teaching him to be faithful in small matters...
God is most glorified when we are most satisfied in Him
Thursday, August 24, 2006